Yogyakarta, 3 november 2003
Assalamu’alaykum wr.wb.
Thanks to God who has made us be a real moslem and
thanks to nabi Muhammad who has changed all human
become better.
Hopefully God always gives us his love to you,amien.
Actually, I am the one who must say sorry because I
didn’t have time for you. I didn’t have pulsa to send
sms for you and I had no time to go to SIC, but now
I’ll promise to go to SIC to send a letter for you
regularly. Would you forgive me ,dear?
I feel very lonely here because you aren’t in my
side. I feel this dakwah is very hard for me.
Sometimes I cry but after that I say to my self to be
a strong syabah. I think you’ll be dissapointed to me
because I can’t be the one like you want. I can’t be a
militan one.At taghyir couldn’t enter himasta because
they said that himasta and at taghyir don’t have the
same visi and they didn’y want to be religi
organization. But Thanks to God they believe me to
organize himasta so they gave me amanah to be sie
acara in buka bersama at 12 nov tomorrow. Thanks to
god I can’t make it like we want so the pembicara will
be from us (I hope Ikhwan can make pak Hawari to be
pembicara)and Because yunita didn’t want to be sie
acara so I give it to Nina. Please pray for us so our
infiltrasi will succesced.
But I still feel difficult to be close with kp. Our
neihgboorh always make them become far to me. But now
I’ll do the best ,I will fight. Please pray for me.
I miss you so much, you’re my everything although
maybe in front of you I always made you sad. But from
the deep of my heart I felt very sad because you left
me, and our plan. But I know Allah will give the best
for you and me.I hope you love your major(english) now
and you’ll do the best for your father and Allah. I
know you’ll be a best syabah there, always do the best
for Allah like the one you have done here.
I don’t know whether I will choose ku anymore because
my sister also enter university next year so I don’t
want burden my parents. Mybe Allah has decided me to
study and dakwah here. Although in side of my heart I
really want to go to brawijaya,to be close to you.
Happy fasting moon and hopefully we will get the
winning .
I miss you so much. Thanks for changed me to know
Allah ways. You’ll always in my heart.
Allahu Akbar!
Wassalamu’alaykum wr.wb.
